Memories
makes us. There are so many fragments of memories that are etched so deep in me
that they lurk on the surface as light as a leaf that dances in thin air when
the wind blows.
One
such fragment is climbing trees. Reminiscing on all the trees that watched me
grow is precisely when past memories flow into the current living moment.
This
is also a classic example of how I am evolving in my spiritual journey, how I
am exploring what spirituality means to me.
It
means I am a little more curious than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more grateful than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more emotionally aware than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more lighter than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little less judgemental than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more fearless than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more calmer than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more accepting of myself than I was yesterday
It
means I am a little more responsible than I was yesterday
I
walk past the same park every day, yet I feel so vibrant with joy during this
walk - every single day. When the wind blows, I spread my hands as if I am
flying. When the birds fly around, I spread my lips into a smile. When I see
different paths, I am excited to walk them all and when I spot beautiful,
magnificent trees, something stirs in me, maybe the very thing we call LIFE.
When I get closer to one, my child like excitement from my childhood kicks in.
My tree climbing memories spurs many urges. Because I am a little more
fearless, a little more emotionally aware, a little more accepting of myself
than I was yesterday, I follow the urge and hug the tree. In this embrace my
spirit soars, my mind mutes, my heart heals, my soul is soothed. I feel
empty and full at the same time.
When
I let go of the embrace, the doubts and fears translates to clarity and
courage, contentment and happiness transcend sorrow and regret, self-loath
shapes into self-love. These moments
when I feel touched by life, when I believe my own consciousness can create
everyday magic, when I suddenly notice all the unwanted resistance I have built
along the way and feel stunned by the harmony in the natural ease of life that
is available to me and to everyone.. this is when I know the path I am on is the
one I need to trust, the one that I need to pledge to and the one I will call
spiritual because it is my own unique path that will open to me in ways I will
allow and fathom, that I will learn to respect and accept, that will challenge and
change me.
